black

What's your contribution to the world?

So if you know me you know I don’t have cable (because I don’t want cable) and I live for Netflix!

One of my first favs was ” A Good Day to be Black and Sexy” The film explores the subject of sexuality and relationships within the black community in a collection of six vignettes.

But what I remember most is a scene where a young dark chocolate girl poses the question “Whats your contribution to the world” to this little dusty boy trying to push up on her.

Those powerful words have stayed with me for years. As I travel along through my journey of life I am committed to consciously discovering and living out my purpose!

So I ask you…”whats your contribution”?

Advertisements

The Journey: Reflection

reflection

Self Reflection: Internal examination

Task: Find a quite space, set the mood so that you can center your energy (candles, lighting, music) and answer the following questions honestly, for your self!

Purpose:  Access your current state…where you are right now, at the beginning of your love journey

Tools: something to document your answers

Much 

PhenoMeJMarie

“Awkward Black Girl” Flow

AWG flow

I was feeling pretty dang on good Monday…Considering the fact that it was my first day back to work after a 10 day vacation.

I felt so good that my inner lyricist was inspired, and as I sported my Afro I was reminiscent of “The Misadventures of Awkward Black Girl” (Created flow on Monday, “video shoot” was on Tuesday, posted blog on wed…hence no fro)

Yes I Rocks that super natural

I see you checkin my physical

I say I’m more type spiritual, like lyrical for ya melodic soul

I know that I’m eccentric, rebellious, magnificent

Straight lovin this Midwestern chick with southern roots

Huxtables, 2 parents and a stable roof

Ms. Evileen turned to a queen

lookin back the piece’s started con-nec-ting

my past is packed, so do stay tuned

Cuz Please belive Ms. pheno-Me’s dreams will come true!

  Love it or hate it its all for fun, now you know what goes through my mind on my lunch breaks 🙂

Cheya! lol

Let me hear some of you hidden flows… Dont be Scured

Natural Hair Dolls Oh My!

Natural Hair Dolls Oh My!

This discovery just gave me LIFE!!!

Natural Girls & Women United customizes natural hair dolls ranging from about $40- $140.

As a new mommy to a baby girl, it makes my heart smile to know that my Alana can and will (as soon as they lift the hold on orders) have dolls that represent her culture in an authentic way.

Being a brown beauty, in a white dominated society, it is no doubt challenging and definitely affects us in both a subconscious and conscious way. I college, I remember watching “A Girl like Me“, a video made by Kiri Davis in 2005 where she revisits the experiment done by Keeneth Clark in the 1940s.   In the experiment African-American children were asked to choose between black or white dolls and explain their preference.

A few days ago the gorgeous brown beauty Chime Edwards re-conducted this experiment relating it to natural hair, rather then skin color. She used a natural-haired doll and a straight-haired doll to see which doll’s hair type a group of Black children preferred.

All of the experiments are intriguing, but none of the results are surprising…Welcome to the reality we live in. Natural Girls & Women United provides an opportunity for brown beauties to embrace their sun kissed skin, and tangled tresses without doubt that they are totally DOPE!

Here’s one for the team! Keep ya head up and your hair nappy my lovely Brown Beauties

Much

PhenoMeJMarie

 

Niggers & Blessings in 2013

Disclaimer:  I am blatantly using the N word to make a point. Not meant to offend but to educate

So hear me out…

Yesterday was a beautiful day! I was a proud youth leader as the kids in my church killed the flash Mobb performance, dancing to Yolanda Adams “I Believe” for youth day. And instead of a sermon, we had Guy, who is a refugee from Darfuri speak to the congregation about his experience.

So to say the least I was in a pretty positive place after leaving service…  About 2 minutes later I was called a “Nigger” for the first time in my 24 years of life .

I wasn’t mad though…I was more like, really my dude! I understand you yelling “watch the sign” but why you have to add “NIGGER” to the end of the sentence? How is that even relevant to my driving ability?? (Replay of my exact thoughts)

As I continued to drive home I figured I guess I was lucky for it taking this long for the word to be directed specifically to me.  Still taken aback I wondered… What does it mean to be called a Nigger  in 2013? … While the First family is currently Black!?!

           It means covert racism and mental slavery is some genius ish! And we need to open our eyes before we end up back in time!

To be called a Nigger in 2013 was a blessing for me because …

  1. It touched a nerve and evoked an emotion
  2. It sent a message to my soul saying this is not right
  3. It motivated me to act as a way of responding
Image

Actually hearing the word NIGGER… brought home the idea that mental slavery is so00 much more dangerous then being slaves in the field. It blinds us from the reality of our current situation and makes us complacent, content and comfortable with the uncomfortable.  Its why a majority of the black community is surviving instead of living.

It’s time we free ourselves from brokenness, illiteracy, systems, and dysfunctional family cycles.  Educate ourselves so we can be advocates for our community and let go of that Government “assistance” that has become our modern day master!

I’m tankful that white man felt compelled to call me a Nigger.  What homeboy didn’t know, was that I’m not your average N*****! Though he didn’t make me angry, he did fuel me to fulfill my purpose,  in educating these brown beauties out here that we STILL have work to do and something to prove!

We have to prove that…

  1. Our ancestors did not get jailed, beat, abused, raped and killed in vain
  2. We are capable of all things & no weapon formed against us shall prosper
  3. Our mind can beat their words if we are committed to educating it
  4. We deserve the best and we wont settle for less when it comes to justice

So thank you Mr. White man,  I was getting a little to comfortable in this utopian, liberal facade called Madison Wisconsin. I promise you every brown girl that crosses my path will have an opportunity to be apart of the REVOLUTION…And believe it will not be televised.

Run tell that!

When was the first time you were called the N word?